I am officially jobless.  Long story short I had changed jobs from the real estate office and that didn't work out either so I have nothing now.  Am applying to a couple of places but also waiting to hear back on my disability case. 

Austin is back home from his Dad's ~ He was there for a month an a half.  Let me tell you, it is good to have him home. 

I have been feeling out of it lately.  Like things aren't real or something.  I have been having some anxiety issues too.  This song sums me up well ~ Lacuna Coil "To Myself I Turned":

I was born in another world
strictly connected to a piece of my mind
nothing more than a little land
it is a small cradle where I'm a kid
I am the princess in there,
nothing wrong in my fantasy world

I am the king, the nation,
no dictators or religions
no laws laid down for me
I have my own liberty inside of me
nothing to lose, I want to live here

As you see I'm the only survivor in this land

When did I hear this wind before
change like this to a deeper roar?
I'm starting to bleed another way
I just need some time to complete myself

these spotlights are here again
I can't see anything, I'm blind
this nature of time and space
makes me sick of the situation

I couldn't know if I...
if I will be strong enough for this
I have to choose, do I want to live here?

Zach has written and is recording a song ~ It sounds really good.  He is going to get it on the computer when he is done so I will have to share it with you guys.

Anyway, that is the latest from here , Just wanted to get a post up since I haven't in a while. 

I think of you all and hope that you haven't forgotten about me, I am sorry I don't blog more often, I will though!

Good to see you blogging again hun.. I pop over all the time to see if there any new posts *hehe*
I know how relieved you are to have Austin home. Don't worry... things will start to look up soon *hugs* :)

hi Renee sweetie. I've been wanting to email you now but my firewalls are all messed up and i can't log onto any messengers or log into my accounts now for days :'( My brother is calling me back tonight to help me through it and hopefully get the problem fixed! OMG hunny I'm so sorry the job didn't work out for you I was so excited for you! I do hope that u find something new soon that you can enjoy! You and Austin a month and a half away from each other? awww I could never do it. Oh give him a biiiiiiiiig squeeze! I bet he's super excited to be back home! I hope you feel better hun..i'm here if u ever wanna talk! I'm creating a new msn account very soon i'll add u to it ok? Have a great weekend sweetie! LUV U! HUGS!

finally a new blog!! lol come by mine and add me to your friends goober! lol miss you and i promise will call soon. been a bit out of sorts here! loves ya