Well I didn't get the job   I am really depressed about it.  That would have been perfect for me.  Now am back to square one and there aren't many jobs out there in this small town.  So blah.

Austin hasn't been sleeping in his bed alone and I don't know why ... It's a struggle every night to get him to sleep and it's getting frustrating. 

Not much else going on ....

Here are the lyrics to Three Days Grace ~ Never Too Late:

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

'Til the next time I haunt ....

I have been an interviewing fool lately.  I have had interviews at a Vet clinic, two daycares and now one at the school across the street.  That is the job i SO want.  It's right there across the street and it's Austin's school.  How perfect would that be?  The hours are 8-4 Monday-Friday with a 45 minute lunch.  I am so excited ~ the interview is Monday at 10:45.  Wish me luck!

Here is a funny Psych moment ~ I adore that show :

Gus: So now I have a cat?
Shawn: An orange tabby. Last Christmas you made her a Santa hat. It was adorable.
Gus: Fantastic! I can’t even have a make-believe boy cat.
Shawn: Gus, a boy cat wouldn’t serve my purposes nearly as well. The next time I need you, Pickles is having kittens.
Gus: Pickles?
Shawn: Mrs. Pickles is her full name, though I’m not actually sure cats can marry outside of Boston.

How funny is that?!  I just adore this show and I adore James Roday.  I wrote to both him and Dule' Hill (Shawn and Gus) so am hoping to hear something back from them.  To get an autographed pic back from each of them would be a dream come true.

I also wrote to James McAvoy, my other fave actor, and am hoping to hear something back.  I wrote a birthday card to Evangeline Lilly.  I have gotten autographed pics back from her in 2005 so am hoping to get another one this time.  I am all about writing the fan letters. 

Well, am going to lunch with a friend, so going to wrap this up.  I am so happy about getting that interview ~ I can't stop smiling about it!

Leaving you with another Lacuna Coil song ~ "Wave of Anguish" (Kinda sums me up well)

There is something weird I wouldn't believe
I'm losing grip on my lifetime
I don't understand this wave I'm in
Wrong place, no money, just responsibilities

My heart and my wish are so far away
I'm alone now
Feeling the slow beat turning fast
No longer breathing
I', returning in my own hell

I don't want to go
Hold me into your arms so tight
You cannot see
You'll see it

In another world
Hold me into your arms so tight
You cannot see it
You'll see

There is something strange
You've got to believe
It's taking away my sunshine
I don't understand this wave I'm in
Wrong face, no money, just responsibilities

'Til the next haunt .....

Lacuna Coil "Falling"

Stained, looking at my hands
I talk with these lines
It's not the answer
I'm crying and I now I know
Looking the sky
I search for an answer
So free, free to be
I'm not another liar
I just want to be myself...myself

And now the beat inside of me
Is a sort of a cold breeze and I've
Never any feeling inside
Around me...
I Bring my body
Carry it into another world
I know I live...but like a stone I'm falling down

Damned, looking into the sky
I can feel this rain
Right now it's falling on me
Fly, I just want to fly
Life is all mine
Some days I cry alone,
But I know I'm not the only one
I see that another day is gone
I don't want to die...
Please be here when I arrive, don't die...please

I am officially jobless.  Long story short I had changed jobs from the real estate office and that didn't work out either so I have nothing now.  Am applying to a couple of places but also waiting to hear back on my disability case. 

Austin is back home from his Dad's ~ He was there for a month an a half.  Let me tell you, it is good to have him home. 

I have been feeling out of it lately.  Like things aren't real or something.  I have been having some anxiety issues too.  This song sums me up well ~ Lacuna Coil "To Myself I Turned":

I was born in another world
strictly connected to a piece of my mind
nothing more than a little land
it is a small cradle where I'm a kid
I am the princess in there,
nothing wrong in my fantasy world

I am the king, the nation,
no dictators or religions
no laws laid down for me
I have my own liberty inside of me
nothing to lose, I want to live here

As you see I'm the only survivor in this land

When did I hear this wind before
change like this to a deeper roar?
I'm starting to bleed another way
I just need some time to complete myself

these spotlights are here again
I can't see anything, I'm blind
this nature of time and space
makes me sick of the situation

I couldn't know if I...
if I will be strong enough for this
I have to choose, do I want to live here?

Zach has written and is recording a song ~ It sounds really good.  He is going to get it on the computer when he is done so I will have to share it with you guys.

Anyway, that is the latest from here , Just wanted to get a post up since I haven't in a while. 

I think of you all and hope that you haven't forgotten about me, I am sorry I don't blog more often, I will though!

That is what I have in my life. Not only do I have Austin who loves me as his mom no matter what but I have Zach, my loving husband who does whatever he can to make me happy.  He supports me in whatever I want to do.  He has even, thru doing some research, found a way to help my fibromyalgia.  He cares that much.  I am truly blessed and a lucky woman.  I am amazed by the love that surrounds me daily. 

We also got a dog ~ named Buddy.  He is a red heeler/terrier mix.  And he is a really good dog!  It's nice having him around.  

I got a job ~ at a real estate office.  I am the admin assistant and so far it is okay ~ the days are long on Saturdays ~ from 12 to 14 hours, but other than that, I think it is okay.  It's a job, right?

I still haven't gotten back into my spirituality like I should be.  Partly because all of my stuff is still in boxes from when we moved.  We moved into a 2 bedroom house from a 3 bedroom house and there just isn't room for all the stuff I had ~ I need to find a way to make some stuff fit.

The only music I have listened to lately is Lacuna Coil ~ I am in love with them! Here are the lyrics to "A Current Obsession" :

Come to me
To feel my protection
A countdown to my revelation
No more respect
For your regrets

And your time has come

The naked truth is in disguise
It's your secret complication
Exhausted of this sacrifice
Just like a lying preacher

Hiding to survive

So strong living in torture
I know that you will never see
The light again
the light again

So hard living in torture
Erase the burning fear into
Your eyes again
your eyes again

This silent scream is stronger now
You cannot keep it too long
This cloud evolving into rain
Your desert seems so far now

Come into my arms
fall into my arms

So strong living in torture
I know that you will never see
The light again
the light again

So hard living in torture
Erase the burning fear into
Your eyes again
your eyes again

Following your line
I'm losing mine

So strong living in torture
I know that you will never see
The light again
the light again

So hard living in torture
Erase the burning fear into
Your eyes again
your eyes again

Well that is the latest from me.  Sorry it has taken me so long to get back in here to post, I just haven't been inspired to write nor have I had much time.  I promise it won't be so long next time.  I am planning on adding to the top of this page so be on the lookout !